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I like makeup a lot, but I think it has to be approached in a specific way. Remember my child makeup is for fun and toys. I think it should be used not to cover up "flaws", to "enhance" your features or to look the same as everyone else, but to fulfill the universal and innate human desire for adornment, for pretty colorful things on ourselves basically. I think foundation is evil. I love bold, colorful eye makeup and I love matching my looks with my outfits, and I like to think of makeup not as a way to fit in with beauty standards or to chase a flawless version of yourself that doesn't exist, but simply as a way to play around and experiment with colors. Click on the left to open up the stash section ← where I'll talk about the products I currently have in my collection, and click on the right for the log → where I'll write down some annotations about trying new looks, my consumption habits, going on no-buys, etc...
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KIKO SKIN LOVER CONCEALER
I do use concealer but only on my undereyes, which are always visibly dark no matter how much I sleep. Concealer is actually the first makeup item I started wearing, years before anything else, but kinda on-and-off. This concealer is... okay, I mean what can I say about concealer?? It gets the job done it's okay but it's not my favourite thing to apply, concealer is just not particularly fun.
WHATEVER BROW GEL I CAN FIND
My brows are really thick and bushy, a friend compared me to Elio from Elio e Le Storie Tese once, so I need to get them somewhat in order when I go out. I can't be bothered to list what gel I'm using here because it's just gel ffs who cares I could probably use my hair gel and it'd work the same. Anyways brow gel is an absolute essential for me.
ESSENCE BABY GOT BLUSH & BABY GOT BRONZE
Yes, my beautiful babies. I own a lot of Essence products because they make cheap things but they're not, like, a Shein-level company. I started wearing blush and bronzer by using powders, but they required primer beforehand and their application was more time-consuming and difficult to get right. So without splurging on super fancy stick bronzers and blushes I decided to get these, and I never looked back, omg. Super easy and fast to apply and blend. For the time being, I use one or the other, not both at the same time, depending on what I'm wearing (blush for cool-toned outfits and bronzer for warm-toned outfits basically), but I'm wondering if I should learn how to use them together....
MAYBELLINE LASH SENSATIONAL MASCARA
What's an eye look without mascara. I've only ever had this one, it was my mother's and she gave it to me. It's... normal. To be honest I can't imagine that there can be many differences between mascaras... It's just, like, black goop for your eyelashes. But I guess I'll see about that after I pan this one.
RIMMEL MATTE PRIMER
Another ancient artifact found in my mother's drawer. It doesn't smell bad so I'm using it anyways. I don't use it all over my face, just on my eyelids whenever I wear powder eyeshadow, and it gets the job done. Only that... but this is a general complaint for eye primers anyway: WHY IS THE TUBE SO GODDAMN SMALL?
A LOT OF EYE PENCILS!!
My first love was black kohl. I never wore makeup, until one day for school-related reasons (it's complicated lol) I had to wear a line of black kohl on my lower lash line, and I was like......... this looks nice. That was the beginning of it all. To this day most of the makeup I do is eye makeup, and eye pencils are my second favourite beauty product after eyeshadow. As of now, I have a black one, a brown one, a brick one, a green one, a yellow one, a turquoise one, a red one, a blue one, and a highlighting one. Wow!
I admit there are some of them I use... less often than the others, but I'm trying to work on that. They're from various brands, but I love the Essence automatic pencils in particular, because, again, they're cheap but really pigmented and comfortable to use.
KIKO STICK EYESHADOW: COPPER
This was my first stick eyeshadow, and fuck, it made me fall in LOVE with that entire product category. I've always sorta known, even back when I didn't wear any makeup at all, that I would LOVE eyeshadow, but when I bought my first powder singles and palettes I found it tricky and time-consuming to apply them. But stick eyeshadow... When I first swatched this stick, I fell in love with its shade but also, most importantly, with how fast and easy it was to apply. I told myself: this is it. Even a lazy retard like me can wear eyeshadow every day now. Now I'm more open to powder eyeshadow lol, but I never fell out of love with stick eyeshadow. It's probably the best makeup product category ever.
I only have this one stick from Kiko because they're expensive (yes they're €10 that's expensive to me) but it's very high quality, it glides on like BUTTER, never creases, and the shade is super pretty and warm...
KIKO LIQUID EYESHADOW: LIGHT GREEN
Like other Kiko eyeshadows this is very good, fast & easy to apply, pretty color, but... It cost like €13 for such a small amount of product?? I admit I have no idea how long it will take to hit pan on this, but this seems like a DROP compared to other liquid shadows I've seen.
ASTRA STICK EYESHADOWS: LIGHT BLUE, DARK GREY, VINTAGE ROSE
I bought these because they are cheap as all fuck, like €4 each or something. They are very pigmented and very comfortable to use (non-automatic stick eyeshadows, the ones with this kind of tip that looks exactly like a pencil, can be kinda harsh on the eyes), but they have one fatal flaw... They crease. They crease a fucking lot. Even with primer, which stick eyeshadows shouldn't need anyway. I guess you get what you pay for...
WYCON STICK EYESHADOWS: """""BROWN"""""", """"""MAGENTA""""""" AND SPARKLY PINK
...No. I bought these in the summer of 2025 when I was basically new to makeup and also very stupid. I had just bought my first stick eyeshadow, the Kiko one ↑, and I had sworn my undying love to stick eyeshadows as a whole. I was on the Wycon website for some reason and they had a sale + free shipping from only €20 upwards = my impulsive consoomer ass immediately went OOGA BOOGA WOW I HAVE TO BUY THESE!2!!1!2!1!!2 And I placed an order that very same day. I didn't think it through, and I paid the very literal price for it. These kinda suck. The brown one and the magenta one swatch differently, but look exactly the same on the eyelid, and not only that but they are basically fucking invisible. You just can't see them. I also got a shiny pink one which is... fine, it still isn't very visible on the eyeli, but it's certainly better than the others. I still regret this purchase though. Never impulse buy.
e.l.f STICK EYESHADOWS: GOLD AND..... MATTE......... WEIRD BROWN SHADE I CAN'T DESCRIBE
I bought these way before the e.l.f.-Matt Rife controversy, and once they run out I'm certainly not buying them again, but these aren't bad products per se. I really like the golden stick, it's tacky and flashy, exactly how I want it. But it took me a while to get used to the brown one. I bought it expecting it to be a NORMAL dark brown shade, but it's actually... fucking weird, like the shade of mud. It sounds disgusting and it was, to me, for a certain period of time, but then I guess I kinda got used to it and now it's not bad, I can overlook the... greenish tint. It's also hard to blend, but I just use a firmer brush for it.
L'OREAL SHADOW STICK: DARK BROWN
I got this as a gift, but the shade is perfect for me I think. I have brown eyes so on me it's..... MWAH. It glides on really smooth and it has a very rich color.
REVLON COLORSTAY CREAM EYESHADOW: SILVER
I love this so much. I bought it while it was on a massive sale but I would pay double the full price for it. It's SO PIGMENTED!!!, so LUXURIOUS to apply, it even has its own little built-in brush... And it's super super showy on the eyelids. My Dream. I was born for silver eyeshadow.
ESSENCE MATTE LIQUID EYESHADOW: PEACH
Beautiful little joy. Cheap in typical Essence style but so good. I absolutely adore the peachy pink-orange shade. As for convenience, it's certainly faster to apply than powder eyeshadow, but I have to admit that it took me a while before I understood how to blend it (this was my first liquid eyeshadow ever). I remember going out one time with, like, a big badly-blended splotch of color on my lids because I didn't know how to fucking blend liquid eyeshadow...
REVOLUTION RELOADED MARVELOUS MATTES EYESHADOW PALETTE
This is actually the very first eyeshadow product I ever bought in my life, back when I didn't really know what I liked or wanted. I didn't even know what "matte" meant... I just saw all the tacky colors and decided to try it out, as my first palette. I ended up not spending a lot of time with it, because shortly after buying it I discovered stick and liquid eyeshadows, which are far more convenient to use than powder. So I kinda left this palette in the dirt. Now, though, I've opened myself back up to powder shadows, so I've been rediscovering this palette. It's not half bad, especially the yellow and orange shades (!) I'm a sucker for bright colors. Let me say something though, the "blue" is fucking hideous.
CATRICE CORAL CRUSH EYESHADOW PALETTE
This is what made me rediscover and reconsider powder eyeshadow!! It came free with a magazine that my mother had bought, so she just gave it to me. I was ECSTATIC because free eyeshadow A WHOLE DAMN PALETTE AHHHHH + the color story is so pretty!!!! I was worried I would have no time in the morning to apply primer and mess around with powder, but as it turns out, more often than not, I do. I'm thankful to this little palette for leading me back into the wonderful world of powder eyeshadow.
ESSENCE SOFT TOUCH EYESHADOW DUO: BLUE AND LIGHT BLUE
Got this when I'd just started doing my makeup, at around the same time as the Marvelous Mattes palette, and just like that one, Ι eventually stopped using it for a while until I got the Catrice palette and rediscovered powder eyeshadow. The regular blue is awful, I'll admit, but the light blue is stunning and it has given me so much joy. I think this was the first eyeshadow that I ever really loved a lot.
DEBBY COLORCASE MONO EYESHADOW: PURPLE
Very very ancient artifact of unknown age. My father's girlfriend gave it to me, when I first started getting into makeup, because she didn't use it anymore. I was so excited to have purple eyeshadow, but... this one looks way less bright on the eyelid. It doesn't even look purple all that much, more like a sort of grey?... It might be because it's old, or because it was a cheap nasty product to begin with. It's okay though, I got it for free so I can't complain.
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💭 MusingI've started wearing less mascara, because I don't have time to put on three coats in the morning anymore, because who cares, and because it's a pain to remove. Good thing then that I got gifted two fucking mascara tubes for Christmas. Fuck. We really don't think hard enough about how long makeup lasts. My concealer is eternal. My blush is eternal. I should update the stash section with what I got for Christmas, but I can never find the will to do it
✨ LookFor my New Year's makeup look....... I was actually stumped, I didn't know what to do and I became kinda desperate at one point. I was gonna be wearing this super nice vintage jacket, long, elegant, kinda beige and yellow. The basic idea was brown and gold, and I sat down to try some different looks but they all came out shitty. In the end I went for a stupid simple halo eye with medium brown on the sides and gold at the center of the lid, and a smoked-out wing of dark brown kohl. It was okay but not very showy, I wanted more for New Year's Eve... This look was nothing extraordinary but I'm still writing it down because I'm kinda proud I still came up with something lol
💸 No-buy For Christmas I've received more makeup than I could've imagined. Before this, I was considering extending my no-buy to six months, but I was unsure because it seemed like such a long time. Now I'm pretty sure I want to try, at the very least. Holy shit, I did not expect that the MOMENT you get an interest in makeup everyone jumps at the chance to gift you THAT. I'm very happy about what I got, but I'm getting a little scared thinking about WHEN WILL I FINISH ALL OF THIS...... My mom got me a mini neutral eyeshadow palette but... I didn't need more neutrals. Everyone has neutrals. Nobody needs more neutrals. I'm not complaining because I'm still gonna use it (I used it today), but seriously, when the fuck am I gonna pan all my eyeshadows??????? "I AM NOT A TOY. I AM NOT A CHRISTMAS PRESENT. I AM A 400 YEAR COMMITMENT." So I have 0 desire to buy anything right now, and even if that desire resurfaces again soon, I think I should keep up with my no-buy. 6 months is a long time but it looks like a satisfying challenge to complete.
✨ Look 💭 MusingFor a Saturday night out I wanted to do this eye look (excuse me for the ugly ass moid), paired with a black and white flannel jacket. I'd kind of tried this look before but the wing had ended up being very subtle, very light. Saturday night, though, I wanted to go EXTRA BOLD, I wanted that wing to be visible from space. I only recently started experimenting with wings, and even though I don't use or own eyeliner and my wings are always smoked out, it's still kinda visible if they're wonky.
So I sat there and I sketched out the first wing, added and blended and added and blended, moved onto the other eye, but I kept seeing the differences between the two wings. I kept making changes to them, adding and blending and adding and blending and removing almost everything when I'd overdone all that adding and blending, etc etc... you surely know the drill. But I kept being dissatisfied, and I got more and more pissed off, and I kept erasing and redrawing those wings until I just had to tell myself... get a grip. I'm not immune to things like these but I want to recognize them when they happen and persuade myself that they are meaningless. Because NOBODY CARES. Nobody is going to take that good of a look at my face as I walk by. If I want to mantain a healthy, playful, non-compulsory approach to makeup, and if the only person that cares about my makeup is me (or, rather, if the person that looks at my own makeup the most is me), then if it stops benefitting me and starts stressing me out, why even do it? When it stops being fun, drop everything and just move on. IT'S FOR FUN GIRL. LEAVE IT BE.
And the look ended up being bomb anyways
✨ Look Today, to go with the beige sweater and blue jeans I was wearing, I decided to wear both of the main color families in the Catrice Coral Crush palette: brown and light blue. I put an orangey brown shade I'd never used before on the lid with a light brown shimmer at the center, the main matte turquoise shade on the lower lash line, and a cold white shimmer as a highlight in the inner corner. That orangey brown shade ended up being... more orange than I thought, I looked kind of like a Tide Pod, or a Digimon character design, but this look wasn't too bad, I think I'm gonna do it again. Variety is key.
✨ LookToday I was wearing black jeans and a grey and red sweater; I usually wear grey eyeshadow with this outfit, but today I decided to diversify and I wore a matte red one that I've never used before, along with a reddish shimmer at the center of the lid, and a little smoked-out black kohl wing. The wings were kinda fucked up cause I'm still new to doing them but I loved this look overall, it was FIERCE!....
💸 No-buy 👁️ Purchase idea I'm on a no-buy of anything beauty-related for the month of December. I recently got that Catrice palette I mentioned in the stash section for free, and it lead me back into the world of eyeshadow palettes. Now, I kinda want a new palette, but I know I really, really gotta think this through, and only AFTER I finish this no-buy month: I need to put money aside to buy Christmas gifts, and also I gotta decide if I really need or even WANT that palette. I would thrift it (will you get mad if I call Vinted "thrifting"?), and I wouldn't have it cost more than €10 shipping included, but I still have to think about it carefully: I've become really stingy, yes, but I think it's not a bad thing.
Maybe I just want a new palette right now because I'm still riding the wave of novelty from the Catrice one. I know what I like about the idea of a new palette: the fact that it'd have a color story. I love the CONCEPT of color stories in general because I'd like all the silly/creative names. I also like the fact that I'd find all the shades neatly arranged near each other, which would immediately spark ideas about combinations. But... these are pretty dumb reasons to buy something. One is just "ooga booga nice word under nice color" and, for the other, I can just... make combinations with my own damn brain between the products I already have. I don't need them to be laid out on a single pan to do that, I'm not completely spastic. Despite this, I still think that buying a cheap, second-hand palette would be a nice treat, but only after this no-buy month, AND I gotta choose it really well. It has to be the most divine, perfect, ravishing palette of all time. It has to have shades that I've NEVER SEEN BEFORE. I have to instantly get wet at the sight of it. And if it falls short of these standards, then sorry, onto the next one. Yes I'll probably never find this mystical palette but that's kind of the point lol, if I spend my hard-earned money it's gotta be on something that's really worth it.
This month I'm gonna try to get more creative with my stash. I hope that having this webpage, writing down the products that I already own & what looks I can create with them, will help me appreciate it more and make me realize that I shouldn't need anything else.
